Tuesday, November 17, 2009

What a difference a year makes



One year ago I was sitting in a conference room working on my team's latest software release. It was a Friday. It was 11:11 a.m. I had my e-mail up and I was surprised to see an e-mail from my agency coordinator show up and I read the words that forever changed my life.


For the first time, here's her e-mail in full:


Hi Diann,

Okay I met the little girl I was telling you about and she is really a sweetie! Her papers say she turned 5 on October 31st, which is the date she came into the orphanage. I would say she is probably on the older side of 5 though. ll of her tests have come back negative and her papers are ready to be filed. If you think she is a little older than you were planning, there are two families ahead of you for 4 and under girls. However we do have two girls in their age ranges in our care so that could substantially affect how long you would wait for a little younger of a girl. My computer is having trouble with letting me attach pictures, I have tried for about 30 minutes sorry! If you go to the snapfish, and look in grace's trip to ethiopia she is the girl in the blue shirt in DSC00080 and DSC00088. There are other pictures of her in this album and in Lee XXXX's. I know this is a lot to take in, so feel free to call me.

Grace


Everyone who knows me knows I am a very sensitive and emotional girl and I had often read about other people's reactions to seeing their child's face for the first time. I thought mine would be one of glorious tears and gasps of "Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness."


What was my initial reaction? "That kid's not 5." Yep, that's it. No motherly instincts kicked in, just trying to determine how old she actually was. I asked my agency coordinator about the age discrepancy and she told me that she had met Bizunesh and that she was definitely in that range.

I remember Aimee asking me how old I thought she was...I said 7. She asked me how old was my age range and I told her 5 and then I almost choked at the thought of "passing" on this child.


And then my faith started to kick in.

I remember closing the door of my office and staring into the photos I had of Bizunesh. I remember whispering "Are you my little girl? Are you the daughter God has chosen for me?" And I remember the still, small voice that spoke directly to my heart that asked me if 7 was too old to need a mommy. And then I sent this e-mail back to my agency coordinator.

"I say YES!"

And one year later I am so glad I did.

One year later, this long-legged beauty bounced into my bedroom this morning, giggly and said "Good morning Mommy."

One year later, this is truly the stuff dreams are made of!



Monday, November 2, 2009

The Triple Crown of Celebrations

Well the last 7-10 days of October were been quite an adventure. We celebrated Jacinda's birthday, Halloween and Church Dedication. But within those celebrations fell our five-month anniversary as mother and daughter as well.

This little girl continues to completely surprise me. She has grown so much! Physically, mentally, emotionally but one thing remains the same...I am forever in awe of her!

More on that later, for now here are a few photos:
Birthday Party
I set it up like a mini-carnival with a pumpkin theme because my girl loves orange and we really let the good times roll. She received some amazing gifts and was a pro at opening the presents and saying thank you. Her friend Jacob sat beside her and explained what something was if she didn't know and read some of the cards to her. It really was a fabulously fun time!









Stay tuned for Halloween and Dedication photos!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Immunization Hullabaloo

I really should have written this post last week...BUT I was too angry, too disappointed, too distressed and too dumbfounded to allow myself within an inch of the keyboard on this subject. It's a week later now and I feel like I can approach this story with a little more clarity and put on my reporter hat again and just give the facts...MOSTLY.

FACT: West Virginia is one of only two states in the nation (the other being Mississippi) that does not allow the opting out of vaccinations for any reason. ANY.

FACT: Jacinda's school has funding to employ a full-time nurse, but no money for an ESL/ELL teacher.

FACT: The aforementioned school nurse, is a by-the-book stickler.

FACT: She and I came to serious blows last Monday.

Background: Before school started on August 26th I took Jacinda to the pediatrician had her immunizations and then registered her for school. I asked them if they needed an official shot record from the doctor and the lady who registered us assured me they didn't if I knew the dates. I did, so we were all set...or so I thought.

A few days after school began the school nurse called me at work and told me that unless I provided the shot records that Jacinda would not be able to come back to school. I explained that I had asked and was told they were not a necessity and she blatantly told me I should have asked her the question. I would have, but evidently she was much too busy enjoying her nursing duties or the last few days of summer vacation when I registered her to be available to give advisement during this period. I quickly got the records and had an additional TB Test done for Jacinda, so she could stay in school.

Two days after that, the school nurse sent home a letter stating that while she appreciated the immunization records, Jacinda was behind. (DUH! She is an internationally adopted child that had only been in the country for three months.) She then said that I probably already had a schedule of immunizations from the health department ( nope, I took her to the pediatrician, so I thought he could make those decisions ), but that the nurse had her own schedule she wanted followed, looking for the next round of immunizations 30 days later.

Well I will admit that life kind of got hectic, so I missed the School Nurse deadline and yep, you guessed it. I got a call again telling me that unless Jacinda received these shots, she would not be allowed to come back to school. So I took her to the pediatrician, who determined that there was no need for boosters or ensurity doses of the two that the nurse was looking for at this point in time. He did opt to give Jacinda four other vaccinations that day. He wrote a note to the nurse explaining that he thought it was too soon for the doses and wanted to wait two more months before administering them.

When I didn't get a phone call or a note, so I thought it was all good. That Monday the pediatrician called and said the school nurse had called them directly and told him that it was fine to hold off on giving Jacinda those shots BUT it she would have to have her removed from school. The pediatrician called me and told me that due to her phone call he would reconsider his decision and go ahead and give the immunizations at my convenience. He said we had a couple of weeks to get them done.


I was ticked off and completely taken aback that a school nurse could over-ride a pediatrician, but it is true and later I found out this school nurse believes it is her DUTY to educate the doctors "who just don't keep up on what they are supposed to do."


Flash forward four days...I get a nasty message from the school nurse. She informs me that since I refuse to work with her on these shots that she has started the process to have Jacinda removed from school. Now I will say within these four days, I have told everyone who will listen, how ridiculous of a policy I think this is.

On Monday morning I called her and told her that I would be coming to get Jacinda to get her immunizations (four days shy of the two weeks). She tells me that she doesn't like to remove any of HER CHILDREN from school, but that she already had a meeting scheduled that day with the county attendance director to have Jacinda removed.

I stifled a desire to reach through the phone lines and choke her. I get it together enough to tell her that I was surprised to hear her harsh tone on the phone. That's when she accused me of trying to get her in trouble at work by going to the school board. I explain to her that I didn't and she basically calls me a liar and tells me that she is well within her rights to talk to Jacinda's pediatrician any time she wants to, every day she wants to about her immunizations and there is nothing I can do about it. And that even though she almost got written up about not talking to me, everyone is now well aware that she was within her rights.

I ask her who told her that I went to the school board and she tells me the principal.

At this point my blood is boiling and I have to get off the phone. I go and pick up Jacinda. She is then gets two additional immunizations bringing her total to 6 shots in 10 days.

And then I start making phone calls...I call the county attendance director (who I happen to know because he was the basketball coach when I went to high school). He was very friendly and when I tell him why I am calling, he is shocked. There was never a meeting scheduled. He had not been contacted by the school nurse to discuss this matter. So it turns out the school nurse lied to me about that.

Then I talk to the principal who says she never told the nurse anyone went to the school board and that the school nurse told the principal all was well and everyone was agreed Jacinda could wait for her immunizations. All of my discussion points fell on deaf ears and the principal treated me like an irrational parent.

Although I did get some good news the other day, I heard the school nurse is retiring this year...I am thinking about calling the principal to ask if I can plan the party.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Oct. 21, 2008

One year ago today, I received this e-mail:

Diann,Just an update--I found out today that we just accepted into Hope, a 5 year old girl. I know this is the upper end of you age request, so I wil understand if you would want to wait. She seems to be paper ready, she is from the police I believe. They have just taken her for her medical though, so we have to wait for that. Just an update, but at least its forward progress!

I remember the feeling of euphoria, the queasiness in my stomach, the excitement to see her face or to hear anything about her. The fear that something would happen that I would lose her. My heart skipped a beat when I got that e-mail a year ago and in that moment I fell in love with a little girl whose face I had never seen.

In a few days, Jacinda and I will celebrate five months of her being home. And just to think, it all started with that little five-lined e-mail!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Leaving Jacinda



Well tomorrow morning I am going to drop Jacinda off at school and will spend my first weekend away from her. I have mixed feelings about this myself, but I am pretty sure we are both ready for this. And I know I could use the time at the Ladies Bible Study Weekend to get myself re-centered. It's something I look forward to each fall and I remember last year praying for my yet unknown daughter. What a difference a year makes!
Jacinda has spent a night or two at my mom's, but this time Grammy is coming with me and she will be staying with my cousin Monica. I've been preparing Jacinda for this for a few weeks and she bounces back and forth between telling me she is going with me to being really excited about spending time with Monica.
We packed her clothes for the weekend last night and tonight will pack an activity bag. Jacinda has given me detailed instructions that I call her when she wakes up and before she goes to bed and two times in between. (Hopefully my cell phone service will work in the mountains.)
I remember when I was getting ready to travel to Ethiopia how worried I was about if she would like me. I even worried she would be sad that I was her mom, preferring my BFF and travel bud, Aimee because Aimee knew so much more Amharic. But Aimee gave me some sage advice that calmed me down.
Four months in, I am glad to say my fears were totally unfounded. I am pretty certain I am Jacinda's favorite person and I know she is mine. She often tells her teachers how much she loves me and talks about me a lot at school. I love that. Of course I talk about her as well.
So this weekend I will miss her smile, laughter and chattiness. I will miss the way she asks me if I am happy. I will miss her sweet hugs and her playful kisses, her bedtime prayers and the way she groggily smiles every morning when I wake her up.
But as I have often heard...absence makes the heart grow fonder...of course I can't imagine loving her more than I already do!